It's been a year...a long year...

Well, we made it! Been married for one year! Can't say it was easy or it was too hard either. Just a BIG learning experiance and a lot growing up on both of our parts. We are now closer than every before and I love him with no boundries. He is my everything. We're PREGNANT! Saw a fertility specialist since it took so long and knowing I have PCOS felt like it was the right thing to do. Well, it was. I'm now 5.5 months along and I feel physically and emotionally better than I have in a very long time. PCOS really can rule your life and sometimes you can't help it. One thing thought that was has weighed very heavily on my heart is the fact I don't get along with his mother anymore. From the night before my wedding til' now what little relationship we had has dwindled into nothing. I'm almost to the point I feel I hate her... knowing I don't hate anyone. Just anyone who would lie or talk about me behind my back to a young girl is wrong. Throw in personal things about our marraige is absolutely over the line. Granted she doesn't like me but don't fake it to make my husband feel better.. because it doesn't. Anything it's be littling. We asked her to drop the fiasco and not to bring it up til' after the baby is here... that was 3-4 months ago. My husband and I's arguments over it stopped. We are now closer than ever before because actually got to know me and see his family is with me not his mother. Don't get me wrong, I'm not stopping them from talking or seeing each other. That's his own doing I just don't have anything to say to someone like her. A few weeks ago she had the nerve to tell my husband he is materialistic and is on a high horse. Well... She is wrong. He works very hard for what he has and has right to be proud of that. I let that go. Then last night... she wrote him saying we will never let her see our child... WTF where did she get that from?? Making up stuff to have pity on herself is just sad. And saying since out of my first trimester stress won't hurt the baby... BS, it's my body and when I get stressed or worried I unfortunantly get the stomach ache that isn't friendly... catch my drift. So, my child isn't getting the nutrition it needs because I"m "sick"... that effects the baby. She also said she is tired of feeling guilty when she shouldn't... If she feels guilty then obviously she knows she has done something wrong. I just want to enjoy my life with my husband and family and be surrounded by love and happiness. Is that too much to ask for? Tomorrow is our 2nd big ultrasound. It's been 4 weeks since the last and I'm nervous as hell. I'm praying our little GIRL is fine. Yes, it's a girl!! That's another thing that angers me. We didn't tell her something is going on with the pregnancy for the fact she will try to use it against my husband for sympathy. Grr.. I"m just really to the point... I've let go of her immaturity, wrongfulness, and just plain idiotic thinking to where if I see her I do... whatever.. Just, I love the rest of his family. And she is jeoperdizing that. Scared I'll see her tomorrow night at a football game that his brother is playing in.. Think I'm just gonna say "Not tonight, I'm here to enjoy this with my husband"