My first blog... here we go..

The past few years of my life have been like the saying "Hell and back". Sometimes I feel like I have literally gone there and been brought back from that horrible place by people I never would have expected to do so. These people I consider angels. I may not tell them that I think this of them, but truly, they are angels. I've finally found someone in my life who really loves me for me. I've thought this before, like most women do, then fall right back into someones trap. The male species plays so many games.. It's horrible, to be honest. This one man that I have found out of the million out there is named Austin, my love. We're getting married this Saturday at the park here in Yukon. I am nervous as hell, but, aren't all brides? Since I have met him, I have been through alot. I was pregnant right off the bat, I had a spider bite that caused my arm to look like I had an orange growing in it, and then off to loosing the baby i wanted to so dearly. To add to all of that, I became heavily depressed again. Something I swore I wouldn't let myself do, but I did. It's so hard to deal with the loss of a child you never got to have. I'm still dealing with it. It's like a day to day thing, it's hard to deal with. Along with that on my mind, his evil ex is not leaving him alone. Calling and threating to say they were common law married. Seriously, how low is that? That to me is so damn childish. It's as if she doesn't want him, but she sure as hell doesn't want anyone else to either. My words to her are Grow The Fuck Up. This is my life, and I will not let her or anyone ruin it.

On the upside of everything, I am marrying the man of my dreams, my best friend. I will have a baby one day soon, I pray. Everything will work out for the best!